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lunes, febrero 26, 2007

Until Then By Side A
i long for the moment
when i see you again
i long to touch and stroke your long black hair
how my heart longs to show you how much i care

i wait for the chance
to feel your hair so fine
through this hand of mine
i long just to say
how i love you this way
its you i adore
forevermore

chorus:
until then
all i have is just a memory of you
that i can hold on to
until then
all i have is just this luxury of time
to wait and think of you
coz you'll be on my mind
until then

i go on believing
i see you standing there
with the wind blowing through your hair
i know that one day
i'll get you to stay
and together we'll soar
forevermore

chorus

i long for the moment
i long for the time
i'll take all my chances
until you are mine

chorus

until then...
until then...
until then...

posted by Ternski @ 11:16 p. m.




domingo, febrero 18, 2007

The Sweetest Valentine
Source: Alvin =)

Note: Read this in a guy's point of view.

Feb 8, 2007

It's been nights since I could not stop from thinking on how I'll spend Valentine's, that is just days from now, for my Sweetheart, Darlene. I know that I have been given this impression that I'm fond of giving surprises but this one is different, she's the love of my life, so I wanted to make that night extra-special for her. She's so special that here I am on an airplane, which is scheduled to arrive in Manila tomorrow.

Once I get there, I will still not let her know that I'm there. I will surprise her on the 14th. I hope she's happy to see me, I can't wait to embrace her and kiss her once again. Now I know how hard it is to keep a long distance relationship.


Feb 11, 2007

Three days before the 14th, I am now desperate. I would not want to disappoint her on this very special day. This is after all, our first valentines together - I wouldn't want to mess up. And so far, what I still have on my bank of ideas is to give her her favorite Pink & Red Tulips on that day. It is still not enough... I would need a place for us to celebrate and something simple, not that extravagant but still romantic.


Feb 12, 2007

At this moment, I have decided to cook for her (pasta) and serenade (the song - Someday, Someday by Thirsty Merc). I know Someday, Someday is not your typical love song, it is not a ballad (but my version will be since I'm only going to use my guitar and not a hire a whole band) but the message of the song is just 'fantastic'. I have been rehearsing for my exclusive concert for one person and so far, I still have to sing/rap the lyrics a bit more faster to catch up to the tune.


Feb 13, 2007

I asked her room mate to let me borrow the whole living room, dining room and kitchen of their condominium where I plan to execute my surprise. I am glad that Keiko is such a friendly and cooperative person. She too is excited about my plan.

Today, I bought all the things that I would need. I bought the food that I will cook for her (i hope that she'll like it, as everyone knows that I do not cook very well), I bought rose petals, I bought the red & pink tulips for her, I bought candles and I bought another surprise for her.

I would think that everything is well set for tom, I'll just have to wake up early and go to their place while she's still in school and Keiko is too busy keeping her from going back to their crib until I send her a text message.


Feb 14, 2007

Okay, I was not able to sleep last night from preparing and rehearsing for my song. I am afraid that something wrong might happen, I don't want to mess things up.

At exactly 1 PM, I placed all the things that I needed inside the car (that I rented, of course). By 1:30 PM, I am already having my very very late breakfast and very late lunch at Mc Donalds near their University while I wait for Keiko. Keiko arrived at 2 PM and gave me the key to their condominium unit. After about 30 minutes of going back and forth from transferring all the things that I would need from the car to their unit, I was able to take a 30-minute nap.

At 3:30 PM, I started cooking the pasta. It took a while for it to cook and once my special Fettuccine is done, I let it set aside while I decorate the place. I decorated the living room with rose petals and candles at the floor. I also placed rose petals and candles at the dining table and placed our dinner as well. I placed my surprise gift for her at the coffee table in the living room beside the tulips.

By 4:45 PM, I used their bathroom to take a shower and I also made sure that the room was well ventilated so as to prevent the smell of the food from polluting the place. At 5:15 PM, I practiced my song for three times and started to write a card for her. By 5:38 PM, I was ready to give her this surprise and at the same time, I was so eager to feel and see her again. I called Keiko and told her to let her in the unit.

She arrived at 6:05 PM. With the lights off and only the lit candles enlightening the place, I felt nervous. When she came, I could not hold back the tears and the yearning of feeling her close to me under my arms. She was very very happy and was crying.

She enjoyed the food (that was good news) and liked the card. After dinner, I serenaded her and she looked lovely, it made me fall for her more. After my awful presentation, we sat at the sofa where she saw the tulips (which made her cry, by the way). She also notice the gift, she was really crying when she found out that it was a copy of her favorite movie - My Sassy Girl. We watched it together and had the best valentine's ever.

Damn, I am so in love.... Could she be the one? OR am I too fast to see what lies ahead?

posted by Ternski @ 10:39 p. m.




miércoles, febrero 14, 2007

This is for my better half:


When I met you I was not planning on falling in love. I was not planning on feeling so attracted to some one, but you awakened feelings inside me that I had forgotten existed.

When I met you I didn't realize how much our love would grow that the attraction that first brought us together would reach beyond passion to the comfort of knowing, I have someone very special.

When I met you I had no idea where our relationship would lead us. How beautiful you would make my world but now I know without a doubt that the luckiest day of my life was the day I met you.





You are a blessing that my entire being is very thankful for. I feel that we were made to love, listen, understand, and work through all times in our lives together and individually. I feel that we have shared more time together than we ever will and I know there are many more special occasions and moments in our lives that will surprise and bring us closer.

I miss you and my love will reach any distance and fly to be in your dreams each evening that we cannot be together. I physically long for you each night and will see you in my dreams until we find ourselves wrapped in the love that grows stronger and deeper each day.

It is important for me to express how much you mean to me. I wish I could do this in person while holding you in my arms and gazing into your eyes. But since we are actually separated by miles of emptiness, this expression must come in the form of letters such as this.

Hon, I know it is difficult for you, as it is for me, to be separated for so long. Life seems to be full of trials of this type, which test our inner strength, and more importantly, our devotion and love for one another. After all, it is said that true love is boundless and overcomes all forms of tests. Our love has been assaulted many times, and I am convinced that it is true love because the longer I am away from you, the greater is my yearning to be with you again.

It is hard to see us apart, even unbelievable that you won’t be with me this valentine’s. I have always breathed with you and my thoughts were every time filled by you. Do you know that you exist in me? You were with me from very first moment I saw you and fall for you in different way. I feel so special with you because you are just too special.

I know that it will take some time for us to be together forever but as far as possible we have to bear this time with patient and growing love for each other. Also we should remember that we have a destiny to be united one day for the rest of our life.

Just have faith and trust in me because my heart has always longed for you. I know that you are somewhere in this world waiting for us to be together again. I always knew that you are God’s gift to me so that I can see this world through your eyes.

I know that people change with time but please don’t let your love towards me change. I don’t mind you to change physically because even if I am deaf and blind, my heart will recognize you because my heart only beats for you.

So remember that the distance between you and me could always keep us close in our heart. I know that the memories that I had with you will be pain when I take my thought back to reality but I know that you are always there waiting for me with even more charm and growing love.

I will count the days till I meet you again. Remember that whenever you see the moon and the stars, think of me because somewhere faraway from you I will be also watching the same while thinking of you.

You are my Charming Prince, and I am your devoted Princess. I cherish every thought of you and live for the day when our separation will no longer be. Until that moment arrives, I send to you across the miles, my tender love, my warm embrace, and my most passionate kiss.

I love you, Ivan…

…forever and ever




Happy Valentine's Day!

posted by Ternski @ 2:47 a. m.




jueves, febrero 01, 2007

Bakit mas masarap magmahal ang mga taong mahilig magpatawa?
1) hirit pa lang niya, panalo na!
2) lagi kayong masaya kahit problemado na!
3) magaling magdala kahit sablay na!
4) hindi ka talaga tatanda sa kakatawa..
5) kapag naging seryoso, talagang tatamaan ka!
6) sigurado malalahian ka ng matalino! hirap atang mag-isip para lang magpatawa and lastly
7) kahit sinaktan mo na, feeling mo OK lang sa kanya.. di mo alam, halos mamatay na siya kung paano niya ilalabas iyak niya!

posted by Ternski @ 9:40 p. m.


Ang bilis ng panahon...

Ang bilis ng panahon no? Ngayon, habang bakasyon ko pa, inaayos ko ang aking Career Portfolio kung saan sinusulat ko ang gusto kong maging career, mga kumpanya na pwede kong pasukan at mag-ojt, at mga naging accomplishments at achievements ko mula pa High School.

Habang ginagawa ko iyon, napapansin ko na ang bilis ng panahon. Parang kailan lang nung sa Pilipinas pa kami nakatira, malapit sa malls, kahit gabi umuwi sa bahay ay okay lang, independent, maganda at active ang performance sa school, masayang nakikipagkwentuhan sa barkada, nakikipagdate sa boyfriend at nag-oorganisa ng activities sa isang club... parang kailan lang...

Parang kailan lang ng umalis kami ng Pilipinas para manirahan at makipagsapalaran sa ibang bansa. Parang kailan lang nung kinailangan kong iwan ang buhay na kinagisnan at kinalakihan ko. Parang kailan lang nung wala ako magawa kundi ang malungkot, mangulila, mag-adjust, at yakapin ang bagong lugar na aking tinitirhan ngayon. Parang kailan lang ng maramdaman ko ang malaking kalungkutan ng pag-iisa, ng walang nagpaparamdam, ng walang nakaka-alala kahit man lang isa sa mga tinuring kong mga matatalik kong mga kaibigan sa Pilipinas. Parang kailan lang ng malaman ko sa sarili ko kung sino talaga ang mga masasabing mga kaibigan na tapat sa kanilang mga salita at ang mga kaibigan na talagang hindi ka iiwan sa ere.

Parang kailan lang ng nakatapos ako muli ang Highshool sa pangalawang pagkakataon at mabigyan ng regalo na isang bakasyon sa Pilipinas. Parang kailan lang ng nabisita ko muli ang bansa na matagal-tagal ko ng inaasam-asam na mabalikan. Parang kailan lang ng makita kong muli ang ilan sa mga kaibigan ko, kasama pati ang mga nagkukunwaring kaibigan ako. Parang kailan lang ng makapiling kong muli ang mga kamag-anak ko na nasa iba't ibang bansa na umuwi para magsama-sama kaming lahat sa pasko. Parang kailan lang ng mabigyan ako ng oportunidad na makapag-experience kung papaano ba ang magkaron ng debut.. at parang kailan lang ng muli kong nakasama ulit ang aking nobyo sa katagal-tagalan ng panahon na naghiwalay kami (pisikal man o emotional).

Parang kailan lang ng kinailangan kong muling iwan ang Pilipinas at bumalik sa ibang bansa. Parang kailan lang ng mabigyan ako ng isang scholarship ng isang unibersidad na hindi ko natanggap. Parang kailan lang ng mabigyan ako ng isang placement sa isa sa pinaka-magandang unibersidad sa bansang ito. Parang kailan lang ng ma-experience ko ang university life sa unang pagkakataon at matuwa't ma-ignorante na ako'y isa ng tertiary student.

Parang kailan lang ng matanggap ako bilang isang store person sa isang donut shop dito at mabigyan ng trabaho sa unang pagkakataon. Parang kailan lang ng pagdaaanan ko ang mahirap na proseso ng pag-ttraining, pagbabalanse ng trabaho at eskwela at ang pagpapahalaga sa mga kinikitang pera. Parang kailan lang ng matapos ang halos 4 na buwan ng pagttrabaho at pag-aaral ng ako'y umalis sa trabaho upang makapag-focus sa pag-aaral ko.

Parang kailan lang ng matapos ang matagal na pag-aaral at pag-pprepara sa aking practical ay nakakuha rin ako ng aking lisensya. Parang kailan lang ng ako'y nahihirapan pa sa pag-papark at pag-mamane-obre ng sasakyan patalikod... na ngayon ay kayang kaya ko na kahit nakapikit pa ang mga mata ko..

Parang kailan lang... ang bilis ng panahon.. Pebrero na.. pasukan na ulit.. ano kaya ang mga bagay-bagay na pupuwede kong harapin? Isa lang ang bagay na alam kong certain... ano man ang maibibigay sa akin ng taon na ito, masaya man o malungkot, isa ito sa mga dapat kong pagdaanan upang maging isang mahusay, preparado at matapang na indibidual sa komunidad.

Parang kailan lang ng malaman ko kung sino-sino talaga ang mga taong may kwenta sa buhay ko at may kwenta ako sa buhay nila. Kung isa ka sa mga iyon, Maraming maraming salamat sa iyo. Isa ka sa mga taong nagkaron ng malaking impluwensya sa akin ngayon. Papahalagahan ko lalo kung ano ang pinagsamahan natin at mga bagay na pagsasamahan pa natin.

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HANDOG
By: Florante

Parang kailan lang
Ang mga pangarap ko'y kay hirap abutin
Dahil sa inyo
Napunta ako sa aking nais marating
Nais ko kayong pasalamatan
Kahit man lamang isang awitin

Parang kailan lang
Halos ako ay magpalimos sa lansangan
Dahil sa inyo
Ang aking tiyan at ang bulsa'y nagkalaman
Kaya't itong awiting aking inaawit
Nais ko'y kayo ang handugan

Chorus:

Tatanda at lilipas din ako
Ngunit mayrong awiting
Iiwanan sa inyong alaala
Dahil minsan, tayo'y nagkasama

Parang kailan lang
Ang mga awitin ko ay ayaw pakinggan
Dahil sa inyo
Narinig ang isip ko at naintindihan
Dahil dito'y ibig ko kayong ituring
Na matalik kong kaibigan


posted by Ternski @ 6:36 p. m.


If - Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

posted by Ternski @ 2:17 a. m.