Your Seduction Style: The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement. You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you. By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power. And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

You Are 28% Happy

You're not miserable, but you could stand to be a lot happier. Focus on what's right in the world, and you'll be happier than you ever thought possible.

Your Dating Purity Score: 78%

You are an under-experienced dater. This doesn't mean you're unexperienced - far from it. It just means that there's a lot of romance left to discover!

Your Love Element Is Earth

In love, you have consistency and integrity. For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered. You attract others with your zest for life and experiences. Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time. Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life. You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk. You connect best with: Fire Avoid: Wood You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation

You Have a Sanguine Temperament

You are an optimistic person who is easily content. You enjoy casual, light tasks - never wanting to delve too deep into anything. A bit fickle, it's easy for you to change plans or paths when presented with something better. You enjoy all of the great things life has to offer - food, friends, and fun. A great talker, you can keep the conversation going for hours. You are optimistic and sure of your success. If you fail, you don't worry about it too much. At your worst, you are vain. You are obsessed with your own attractiveness. A horrible flirt, you tend to jump into love affairs and relationship drama easily. You're very jealous - which just magnifies the craziness around you.

You Are 48% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're addicted to love. You've been a fool for love many times - but are you the wiser for it? Your needs should come first, both in and out of relationships. Because you're the only one who can look out for yourself!

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is low. This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships.. It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life. In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

You Are 44% Open Minded

You aren't exactly open minded, but you have been known to occasionally change your mind. You're tolerant enough to get along with others who are very different... But you may be quietly judgmental of things or people you think are wrong. You take your own values pretty seriously, and it would take a lot to change them.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

You Are 44% Selfish

You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved. But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it!

i just read this from another person's blog... i can relate in a way..

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In whatever relationship, whether with a great BEING, relatives, friends or "significant others", remember, "we don't just make a relationship LAST; we make it WORK". The importamce of communication, making and spending time with them come into the picture. Amidst the hectic and hassle scheds each of us may have, it just takes a few minutes of our time to at least communicate with our loved-ones and make them feel that they are remembered and are held important in our day-to-day battles. It gives a feeling of security that we don't just treat them as mere 'options' in our life, rather, treat them as 'priorities'. After all, they are the very reasons why we chose to live and face another great day.

If you don't anymore grow to be a better person with another person, then it's not worth it. If that someone distracts you, makes you lose control or focus with your priorities in life, BE CAREFUL! It's UNHEALTHY! A little sensitivity is a necessity. Never ever try to be someone else that you're not. Although insecurities linger once in a while, remind yourself that there is ONE great person who thinks you are SPECIAL and LOVABLE. If others can't accept that something SPECIAL and UNIQUE in you, it's not anymore your problem. Don't lament for unmet expectations of other people on you. They know less of you - they dont just know you.

The greatest gift you can give yourself, is to give back what you already have through an unselfish service for others. It is by learning how to give that we fulfill and realize our worth as beings. This service for others does not expect anything in return. It is done with pure intentions as one seeks himself or herself through such endeavors. A friend of mine told me, "when you give and it hurts, that's when you truly give". Giving your time (which is very precious) for others is a big step on giving a part of yourself to other people. While some do the expected, normal student tasks, finding your way out of what's usual makes it more noble. It gives more light to the four corners of the classroom.


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what can i say? i can add no longer. why are things becoming more complicated as time pass by? i just want a simple relationship. Not too extravagant and very private. I don't know why these pass few days had been very terrible for me. I feel so alone. How is it possible that some people just sets you aside and wouldn't want you to take part in their lives?

confusion, sadness, hurt, denial, unloved, guilt, anger, pride, insensitivity - all of those emotions are surrounding me, i feel it yet i can't distinguish which is which. which is the emotion for me.

'kaya niya akong tiisin na hindi kausapin ng isang araw at sabihin sa akin na na-miss niya ako, pero ako, hindi ko siya kayang tiisin ng isang araw...'

i feel so paranoid. i want him, i need him, i miss him, i think of him, i care for him, i love him. ever since we've been together, all i've been thinking about is not just 'me' but 'us'. i always consider what he might think, how might he react, what he would feel, what would make him happy, what would make us happy, what to do to show him i love him, to show him my love even if i'm far away. he seems to acknowledge that as a 'fact' but not as my service for him out of love, and for my love for him.

i just want the way we were before. why is it so hard to ask? we both know, that we don't want each other to get hurt, we don't want to hurt each other, we don't want to hate each other, we don't want to have arguements and fights, that no matter what happens and no matter how far apart we are from each other - we'll always show our love. oh my God... i miss him...

i have been becoming a cry baby for 9 days now. alvin already teases me that. i don't care. it's my only way of releasing pain. i don't and most of the time, i never tell people what i really feel inside me. i hide it in me, i don't want them to see me that i'm weak or that something is bothering me. but i guess, the days that have passed, my internal emotions has become visible on the outside





Hintay - Soapdish

Nakakulong sa bahay
Namumuti na ang kulay ko
Nakaupo, naghihintay pa rin sa tawag mo
Usapan 7:30, My God its 12 already
and I'm still waiting for your stupid call

cause what the hell happened to you
are you dead?
maybe you lost your love instead
i take a picture of my heart, its dead
not just because i really like you, honey you
(intentionally left blank... i can't follow the song na hahaha)

i want the lyrics of this song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Pwede Ba
by: Soapdish

Pwede bang sabihin mo
Na itatago mo ang mga sulat ko
Kasi medyo maiinis ako
Kung itatapon mo..

'wag kang mag-alala..
Di ako luluha
Kung may kapiling kang iba
Di na pipilitin pa..
Itong damdamin ko sa'yo
Medyo maninibago
Pero ayos lang sakin 'to

At pwede bang sabihin mong..
"maghihintay ako sa'yo.."
Kasi medyo naiinip na 'ko
Sa ikot ng mundo

Pwede bang isipin mo
Nahihirapan din naman ako
Sa paghintay lang ng kung anu-ano
Magmumula sa'yo

At 'wag kang magtataka
Kung ako'y biglang makita
Na nag-iisa..nakahiga lang sa kama
Iniisip ko ito,

"ba't nga ba biglang nagbago?.."

Makayanan ko sana 'to..

At pwede bang sabihin mong..
"maghihintay ako sa'yo.."
Kasi medyo naiinip na 'ko
Sa ikot ng mundo

'wag kang mag-alala..
Di ako luluha
Kung may kapiling kang iba
Di na pipilitin pa..
Itong damdamin ko sa'yo
Medyo maninibago
Makayanan ko sana 'to..

Pwede bang sabihin mong..
"maghihintay ako sa'yo.."
Kasi medyo naiinip na 'ko
Sa ikot ng mundo..

At pwede ba..pwede ba..pwede ba?..
At pwede ba..pwede ba..pwede ba?..

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weee... finished reading the needed readings for bio lectures from 1 - 17.. now, i need to finish reading the text XD

then read psych book for QM tom... finished printing my slides as well..

oh yeah.. the wedding was nice yesterday! some photos aren't available yet but i've posted one sa multiply and sa friendster ko.

i was partnered with mr. eudexter cabatan.. a tourist from phils, the bride's brother.

ayun, it was a very solemn ceremony, not that long and it wasn't even boring. the reception was alright. I had fun taking pictures of myself.. haha.. as if naman i'm beautiful db..

speaking of which, napakinggan ko yung kanta ni Sandara Park sa TFC.. naaliw ako sa kanta.. ang baduy ko na talaga pero.. naaliw lang ako.. now that song is stuck on my head.. kahit nga yung status ko sa messengers ko.. "Ang ganda ko, feel na feel ng short hair ko" kahit ba the song actually goes a bit like --> "feel na feel ng long hair ko" weee' not my fault haha.. short hair naman kasi ako.

but i want my hair to grow longer. it's starting to get super cold in here... having long hair will help a bit by covering my neck and provide it with heat.. para no need for scarf or even wearing turtle necks.. although, i bet when winter comes... mag-sscarf pa rin ako sa lamig..

hmm... nawawala pa rin yung ID ko.. i kept on thinking where i placed it.. by wednesday or siguro bukas.. i'll replace it na.. i need it by wednesday to borrow the dvd movie na i've put on hold sa rowden white library.. plus student ID is needed for the test ko sa thursday.. grabe... where is it?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

btw.. love na love ko yung flowers na binigay sa amin, bridesmaids, yesterday... i love it! parang pareho lang siya nung bouquet na binigay sa akin ni alvin nung valentines kaso yung binigay niya was pink (ata) tapos yung kahapon was blue. fresh na fresh pa yung flowes.. grabe.. nakaka-in love.. nyeks.. walang connection..

oh yeah.. vivesley said last night na she won't talk to james kahit ba partner sila at magkatabi sa table.. well.. well.. guess what?!? hahaha.. they talked.. oh db.. HAHAHA.. she got caught! weee!!! snobbish pa daw ang effect ng loka.. palibhasa she has a crush on him.. asus..

"I liked the way you were in the beginning"





"The time runs slowly...just like my tears."

"Should I hate you because you hurt me? Or should I love you because you made me feel special?"

"We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else. We have to admit that love doesn't give us the license to own a person. This is what love means...sacrifice."

"It's a long road when you face the world alone, when no one reaches out a hand for you to hold. You can find love if you search within your soul, and the emptiness you felt will disappear."

"How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?"

"Learn to love someone who would never make you cry. If he hurts you real bad, then why don't you just say goodbye. You see, men are not worthy of precious tears, they just make us look terrible so please remember that my dear."

"A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you're free from any pain, but your hands are empty."

"A distant cry is love lost, but the sound of laughter is one that'll last forever, whatever that may be."

"Take a look at what you have. Think of all you did to get it. Remember it only takes one second to lose."

"One day you'll love me, the way I loved you. One day you'll think of me the way I thought of you. One day you'll cry for me, the way I cried for you. One day you'll want me, but I won't want you."

"Even if he doesn't like me tomorrow, I knew he loved me yesterday."

"You said you didn't want to see me get hurt, so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?"

"You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?"

"Every few nights or so you pop into my dreams, I just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me."

"I cry because I know he doesn't feel the way I do. I cry because I think of how pathetic I am, and I cry because I think I'll be crying forever."

"Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is, it's not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them."

"Sometimes I wish I had never met you because then I could go to bed at night not knowing there was someone like you out there."

"I wish I was a kid again, because skinned knees are easier to fix then broken hearts."

"A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding.. Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling.. And the most painful thing is, no one really hears it, except you.."

"Someday you'll know, that I was the one for you."

"Love... Why does it hurt? Why does it ache? Maybe because we love too much and too deep that somteimes we forget to keep a little for ourselves...sad but true."

"I don't know what to do now that we're apart; I don't know how to live without the other half of my heart."

"The worst thing a guy can do is let a girl fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall."

"Even if my heart should call out your name in the rain, even if these arms should want to embrace you again, and even if I’m all cried out and no longer in pain... I’ll never fall in love that way again."

"Every night that goes between, I feel a little less. As you slowly go away from me, this is only another test. Every night you do not come, your softness fades away...Did I ever really care that much? Is there anything left to say? Every hour of fear I spend, my body tries to cry. Living through each empty night, a deadly calm inside."

"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So, plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure... that you really are strong, and you really do have worth."

"Who do you run to when the only person who can make you stop crying, is exactly the one who is making you cry?"

"I miss the way you used to hug me, I miss the way you used to kiss my lips, but most of all I miss the way you held me and my heart. I miss you..."

"I wish you would turn around and say, "I desperately need you." I wish you would say you're sorry because that's all you'd have to do. But most of all I wish you knew how much I need you and how much I really do love you."

"I believe the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone and then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk and realize that they are gone. All you see in front of you is a stranger with just a known name."

"You told me I am a child, I know I am not. I know that one day you will miss this child who loved you a lot."

"Life was much easier when we thought boys had cooties, now all they have is the way of breaking your heart."

"You'll never understand why I hurt so much because you're not the one who is crying, you're not the one who is left behind, you're not the one who loved too much, and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone..."

"I will always love him, I just won't love the way he treated me."

"Don't waste your time loving someone who isn't willing to love you."

"It's better to lose love, than to love a loser."

"She cried when I left her, now, I cry to forget her. Oh, how foolish I was to ever want to leave because nobody in his right mind would have left her ... even my heart was smart enough to stay behind."

"Summer romances end for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common: they're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone."

"Our relationship can be best described as a crumpled piece of paper; no matter how hard you try to straighten it out, it'll never take on its true form."

"Remember me when you are gone, far to the beyond, away from me. A journey I cannot go with you on, even though you are going for good. I have tried for tears not to fall from my eyes. Keep alive the beautiful times we share, and take it to heart that my love for you is ever sure. Remember me. Oh, remember me, for memory may fade but they never die."

"If I could control my heart, I would stop it from falling in love with you...."

"Emptiness isn't loneliness, it's the missing of you."

"Loving someone that doesn't love you isn't wrong, it's just painful."

"It's been so long and I feel so lost, and we said this would last no matter the cost. We tried so hard and pushed so far, but why do I feel so torn apart? I hung my head and began to cry. Why do I continue to just waste time, after all I tried. I've fallen, out of love with you."

"I want to love you again more than anything, but I cannot overcome everything we've been through."

"Getting hurt by just one person is worse than getting hurt by hundreds of others who just don't compare...."

"What do you believe in when everything you believed in is now gone?"

"You have no clue what I go through each day, the pain and ache I try to conceal. Each time I hope you would pass my way, and from that short moment my heart could heal."

"Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life .... You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination; not just in the mind, it's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

"I don't try to remember us but when I do, it brings a smile to my lips and a tear to my eye."

"No one can ever promise you they will never hurt you, because at one time or another it will happen. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end."

"If I could tell you now, how I felt then, to say the words I love you, and mean them once again. Realizing you are there, standing right behind, only knowing, you're not so far behind. I wish tonight, that I was in your arms, and you were telling me we'd always be alright."

"A change is good for me, for I must learn now how to live. With you I've spent many nights, and can no longer survive without your touch. I need to learn now how to live for myself each day, and when I learn the biggest task, I can finally call myself independent."

"Never cry over somebody who would not cry over you."


ok.. i'm putting this back... sobrang i'm bored kaya i've decided to put my blog back.

i have my curling set na! ^_^ wala lang.. pero so far.. tatlo lang dun sa sampu yung alam kong gamitin... the curling iron (yung for curly locks), yung crimpler pati na rin yung straightener... (parang mali yung spelling nung isa ah...)

ayun.. i'm currently taking a break from studying bio.. may mid-semester test kasi ako on thursday this week.. bukas, i won't be able to study kasi kasal na ng pinsan ko..

speaking of his wedding ayun.. dumating na dito yung mga kamag-anak ni ate eully. i didn't get a chance to interact with them.. kasi nag-drive ako kasama si kuya mayo. masaya mag-driving.. ano siya.. parang a way of releasing tension.. atleast for me. pero not in a way na nag-ooverspeeding ako.. kasi while driving na-se-set aside yung mga problema at kung ano-ano pang mga iniisip para maka-focus sa road at makapag-drive ng maayos. so far, naka 42 or 43 hours na ako... sana naman payagan na ako nila mama na kunin ang P Plate ko.. ayoko na ng L Plate..

anyway.. ayun.. kahapon was night market sa school.. nag-stay ako dun hanggang 6: 30 pm.. mga 8 pm na ako naka-uwi.. grabe, it was fun.. get to interact with my friends pa rin.. nagkanda-gulo gulo na sa stall namin.. pero maayos naman, marami na ring mga bumibili. tapos may nag-perform din dun na mga pinay.. yung kinanta nila yung Langit na Naman ni Barbie's Cradle at yung Tibok Ng Puso - MYMP. grabe.. ang ganda ng version nila... ang cute nile ^_^

after nun, nung pauwi na ako kasama ko si Christine, nagpicture picture ako ng iba't ibang mga locations sa school, although blurred silang lahat hahaha.. kasi nagmamadali na ako tapos gabi pa. pero if you want to see some pics, nilagay ko sa multiply site ko. Under Melbourne University.

may bago kaming lecturer sa bio.. wala lang.. nakatulog ako sa una niyang mga pinagsasabi pero later on, nabuhayan din ako. natuwa ako sa mga kinukwento niya.. he's lectures are all about animal behaviour.. buti nalang fed up na kasi ako sa cells at plants. tapos nung thursday, nag-discuss kami sa anthropology about sex and gender roles.. sobrang interesting yung discussion.. kulang talaga ang one hour sa anthroplogy... speaking of that.. hindi pa nga ako nakakagawa ng oral presentation ko para duon at essay para dun.. sana by next week makapag-start na ako after ng test ko sa bio.. pati nga bio may essay pa akong gagawin.

next week.. wala akong pasok ng friday pati na rin yung buong week na kasunod nun.. pero hindi naman ako magbabakasyon.. kasi andami nilang pinapagawang mga essays.. pati opportunity ko na rin makapag-review kasi malapit na rin ang exam.. ayoko naman yung nag-ru-rush at nag-ccram.. at lalo ng hindi ko gusto yung nagpupuyat kapag exam.. dahil wala ng papasok sa utak ko nun.

ngayon, dapat may party akong pupuntahan ng 12 - 3 pm sa city.. may party ang barangay australia.. maga members ng filo students assoc. ng iba't ibang universities... inaaya nila ako pero sinabi ko na hindi ako ppwede.. mag-aaral ako tapos sa sunday naman kasal ng pinsan ko.. hehe.. buti nalang naintindihan nila. kasi ewan ko ba.. napaka-KJ ko siguro... pero kasi, una ang layo ng venue.. eh di ang layo pa ng uuwian ko db.. pangalawa, sayang lang pera ko.. nag-iipon pa naman ako kasi nga gusto ko naman makapag-beach pagbalik ko sa pilipinas (ayoko kasi nung humihingi ng pera sa parents ko. aside from that, kapag alam nila na may pera na ako, hindi nila ako pipigilan mag-beach hehe). at pangatlo.. andami ko pang aaralin kaya.. kaya nga madalas kong iniisip na sana malapit lang bahay namin sa school para naman makasama din ako.. pero okay lang yun.. tiis tiis lang muna.

HAay.. i'm currently listening to some songs.. yung iba revival nalang.. pero gusto ko pa rin:
Binibini - Brownman Revival
Ikaw Lang Ang Aking Mahal - Brownman Revival
Langit Na Naman - Barbie's cradle
Toll Gate - Hale
Heaven Knows - Orange & Lemons