its been a long time since i've had a 'reflective' moment with my blog.. i haven't had time kasi.. i've been busy with uni life.. yep, enjoying every single moment of being a college freshman at melbourne uni..

gosh.. where should i start? well, first up! the exmas!!! sheesh.. it'll start next month!!! i actually have 3 exams (bio, chem & psych) and 1 essay (anthro) to take/do in order to pass for this semester.. i feel pressured.. i need an average of 85% to transfer from fee-paying to CSP.. i do hope that i can do it at the end of the school year.. another thing is.. i need 80% for fundamentals of chem so that i don't have to take chem b on the summer semester.. cause i want to do chem b next sem.. although, i'm still having second thoughts because i want to fully understand chemistry (as a whole - fundamentals of chemistry, chemistry A - organic chemistry and chemistry B).

i've been planning to visit my cousin in US and attend his graduation.. finally, 'Kapitan Abad' is finished with his schooling days.. school is over and its time to take a journey on the 'working environment'.. since i have no school around november - feb, i'm planning to visit him plus take a stop over at japan (to visit my uncle there) and ofcourse a stop over in the philippines as well. i've been telling this to him na.. i don't know if he's excited or what - haven't heard from him for days (except last night when he called me for a minute?!?).

speaking of 'him'.. oh my.. i had this dream (i almost forgot to type this.. hehe).. i was in the philippines and i have a son.. i'll re-type it.. WE HAVE A SON?!?.. that was so weird but it felt good and comforting to hold a baby.. i think i heard one of my relatives say (cause i think i was hugging the baby) "Alam mo, hindi lang puro yakap ang kailangan ng bata.. kailangan din na every single moment, you kiss him" tapos i did kiss the baby.. aww.. grabe.. and it felt like heaven daw to have a baby.. everyone was happy.. then the next scene (or the next thing i remember) our son grew up (as a toddler), and Cian was so happy cause he has a playmate.. my kuya was there, his girlfriend was there and we were discussing.. and another weird thing.. cause the setting was in pangasinan, i was talking with 'him' at the phone and i told him "Pumunta ka dito, bumisita ka kaya.. para makita mo rin ang anak natin." tapos the toddler became a baby again?!? oh db... but all in all.. the aura was good, happy faces, the mood was positive... but when i woke up.. grabe.. i instantly wanted to hug a baby.. sarap ng feeling ^_^

anyway, i have to wrap this up! I'm going to finish my chem work, pack my things and arranged the clothes that i'm going to wear for tom..

Realization: It's good to be independent, there will come a time that no one's going to be there to grab your hand and direct you to the right way. (this came from my anthropology tutor, Leo ^^)