i just read this from another person's blog... i can relate in a way..

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In whatever relationship, whether with a great BEING, relatives, friends or "significant others", remember, "we don't just make a relationship LAST; we make it WORK". The importamce of communication, making and spending time with them come into the picture. Amidst the hectic and hassle scheds each of us may have, it just takes a few minutes of our time to at least communicate with our loved-ones and make them feel that they are remembered and are held important in our day-to-day battles. It gives a feeling of security that we don't just treat them as mere 'options' in our life, rather, treat them as 'priorities'. After all, they are the very reasons why we chose to live and face another great day.

If you don't anymore grow to be a better person with another person, then it's not worth it. If that someone distracts you, makes you lose control or focus with your priorities in life, BE CAREFUL! It's UNHEALTHY! A little sensitivity is a necessity. Never ever try to be someone else that you're not. Although insecurities linger once in a while, remind yourself that there is ONE great person who thinks you are SPECIAL and LOVABLE. If others can't accept that something SPECIAL and UNIQUE in you, it's not anymore your problem. Don't lament for unmet expectations of other people on you. They know less of you - they dont just know you.

The greatest gift you can give yourself, is to give back what you already have through an unselfish service for others. It is by learning how to give that we fulfill and realize our worth as beings. This service for others does not expect anything in return. It is done with pure intentions as one seeks himself or herself through such endeavors. A friend of mine told me, "when you give and it hurts, that's when you truly give". Giving your time (which is very precious) for others is a big step on giving a part of yourself to other people. While some do the expected, normal student tasks, finding your way out of what's usual makes it more noble. It gives more light to the four corners of the classroom.


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what can i say? i can add no longer. why are things becoming more complicated as time pass by? i just want a simple relationship. Not too extravagant and very private. I don't know why these pass few days had been very terrible for me. I feel so alone. How is it possible that some people just sets you aside and wouldn't want you to take part in their lives?

confusion, sadness, hurt, denial, unloved, guilt, anger, pride, insensitivity - all of those emotions are surrounding me, i feel it yet i can't distinguish which is which. which is the emotion for me.

'kaya niya akong tiisin na hindi kausapin ng isang araw at sabihin sa akin na na-miss niya ako, pero ako, hindi ko siya kayang tiisin ng isang araw...'

i feel so paranoid. i want him, i need him, i miss him, i think of him, i care for him, i love him. ever since we've been together, all i've been thinking about is not just 'me' but 'us'. i always consider what he might think, how might he react, what he would feel, what would make him happy, what would make us happy, what to do to show him i love him, to show him my love even if i'm far away. he seems to acknowledge that as a 'fact' but not as my service for him out of love, and for my love for him.

i just want the way we were before. why is it so hard to ask? we both know, that we don't want each other to get hurt, we don't want to hurt each other, we don't want to hate each other, we don't want to have arguements and fights, that no matter what happens and no matter how far apart we are from each other - we'll always show our love. oh my God... i miss him...

i have been becoming a cry baby for 9 days now. alvin already teases me that. i don't care. it's my only way of releasing pain. i don't and most of the time, i never tell people what i really feel inside me. i hide it in me, i don't want them to see me that i'm weak or that something is bothering me. but i guess, the days that have passed, my internal emotions has become visible on the outside